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    AN EXPERIENCE OF FOCUSING DURING ARTISTIC FEEDBACK by Yvon

    March 18th, 2008

    After the showing of my experimental piece Intimacies at the Choreographic Lab, we retired to a discussion about the work as a group. Jane Bacon postulated that we use an adaptation of the ‘Focusing’ technique to flesh out various kinds of reaction to the work. Based in my rather out-of-the-ordinary technique for sourcing and structuring performance material, the piece was particularly difficult to discuss. While it engaged with the traditions of contemporary dance and contemporary music, it also existed outside of both of these, yet could not really be constructed as ‘live art’. As many of the sourcing techniques used were somatic and psychosomatic in nature, the work was meant to interact with audience ‘flesh’ and ‘emotional flesh’.

    For these reasons, I found the focusing technique very gratifying. A number of elements made this the case.

    Firstly, the process was managed by a third party, Jane. Having Jane manage the verbal interventions permitted me to observe them without needing to get involved with ‘personal distance’ - I did not have to be objective; Jane managed the conversational dynamics for me, like an extremely adept panel convenor might do, but with much more sophisticated emotional awareness. The discussion was documented.

    Secondly, I got to engage with the visceral reactions of the lab members. As my work addresses itself to the visceral, it was extremely gratifying to actually have a facilitator take the work back to a place where comments emerged from the felt, lived experience of the watchers, and where the technique insisted on observers OWNING remarks - a very, very rare practice in the performance world. This meant that Jane constantly worked to move beyond language that employed value judgment or aesthetic value judgment, and asked witnesses of the piece to actually engage with how they felt about the work and what it made them experience. While this might sound very new age, it was in no way flaky or disincarnated - indeed, Jane allowed the tone to be firey or anxious when necessary. This meant I was ‘face to face’ with a wide range of reactions ranging from what we generally think of as positive to what we generally think of as negative. These existed, however, outside the realm of value judgment: they were more about emotion, which is more of a form of energy than anything else. This gave me a very pure kind of information about audience reaction to my work.

    At the time of the focusing exercise, I was ‘high’. When I complete a performance process, I get a kind of adrenaline rush that carries me through for days after a show. I felt this show had been a real achievement in terms of my own professional pathway. This bliss overrode some of the elements of difficulty about the focussing process, and I was not, at the time, aware of how some of the profound nervousness around the piece affected my heart. Jane did her best to ensure that value judgment was re-expressed as owned emotional content, and succeeded. However I think the piece provoked some very strong emotion such as rage and anger, and at the time, I was too blissful to notice that these affected me; I did, however, notice the more ‘positive’ effects. Perhaps I was also in denial. I think I should have asked to be somewhat ‘held’ in my expressive place myself, afterward. I don’t mean held by arms and cuddled - I think I should have been more expressive about my emotional reactions to everyone else’s emotional reactions. Perhaps what I needed was to feed back on these after a time delay. At the time - really until today - I did not identify that need.

    That being said, the piece also provoked profound emotional connections with other people that were extremely pleasant and heart-warming.

    The focusing technique provided an impassioned model for feeding back on artwork. Ultimately, it is a technique I prefer above all others, because I prefer to frame artistic expression as expression that generates communicative élan and reaction. As this was a first experiment with the technique to feed back on a live piece in this way, it was a gripping taster for me. I would be interested in developing the model to perhaps genuinely engage with audiences during and after performance, as part of the performance experience. The experience also, however, helped sharpen my awareness of my own needs when faced with certain kinds of, and energies of, expression. This need is mostly about taking the exchange process to its ultimate end, and completely resolving the content of emotional expression. Focusing could contribute to developing a totally different means of engaging with performance experience for audiences, and is a profound feedback tool for an artist with interests like my own.
    Yvon Bonenfant


    creative focusing process: 5 steps model for artists by Jane Bacon

    March 7th, 2008

    I’m interested to know more about what you do…

    Developing the focusing, Lerman models and creative responses. Using Hincks ‘5 Facets of Creative Process’ model and working with a witness in one area of the model (Delving, Raising, Assaying, Articulating or Outwarding). Hincks’s model is intended to be used to enable the creative process rather than to comment upon it. Therefore we are going to play around in a sort of back and forth (in and out, rocking, returning, undulating, spiralling…) motion, to see what works when we re-enter the studio or the mind-set of a particular idea, movement, etc. and use the model to help focus a process oriented discussion.

    The artist should choose an area of their process they are interested in knowing more about and the witness helps them use the focusing process to go more deeply into their bodily experience of that particular aspect of process.

    So, for example, I might want to know more about the role of staging in your performance piece so we might decide to go to articulation, which is essentially the creative process of making but on spending time looking at the formal properties of the piece we might discover a need to move to Assaying to see if what has been articulated still has a congruence (in a bodily felt way) to what had a sense of aliveness in Raising.
    A good way to imagine this process is the RSVP cycle by Anna Halprin. We will move into a moment of process, begin to articulate something about that moment, then perhaps return to the practice to see if we can play there to improve or change something, then begin to articulate something about it once again. So we are doing something of an overstitching (for those of you who did sewing at school…)

    Precisely where we enter this model will be determined by where you are in your creative process. However, the aim is always the same – to use ‘the gap’ created in focusing (or to draw on the ‘implicit’ as a place where we can move into language from the bodily felt experience) in order to speak or move from a language that is grounded in our bodily experiences (of both maker and viewer) of the creative work.

    Summary of 5 Facets Model…

    Delving the situation is already give and allowed; we enter and play there. We are like a child exploring within givens it would never stop to think about. This is the space, this is the size of paper, these are the colours we have, this is the body I have, this is the situation I am in.

    Raising we lift-up what interests us. If in Delving a fish might nibble your line, in Raising you’d lift it up and see if you wanted to cook it. It’s the facet to begin to bring out initial themes, issues, ideas, images, conceits, concepts, movements, etc, that you know you want to work with or explore more.

    Assaying there are processes of probing, questioning, detailed exploration of themes, trails, tests, research, studies, attempts. This can be a systematic approach, or it can be a time where there is a lot of drafting, studies for…, all types of iteration. Here one is working to progressively match the sense of what you are creating to the form of the expression you work with.

    Articulating we manifest our creation and the work is finalised. It is the facet of the process that produces the creation. The concrete expression of a work is situated in a specific finalised form. It occurs at a precise point of engagement where the felt-sense of what you want to express concretely forms.

    Outwarding
    we engage with the dissemination, reception or performance of completed work. It includes the relationships one has to audiences and situations that the work may appear in.

    Focusing process reminder…

    Bringing awareness into your body
    OR waiting until something comes into my awareness
    OR choosing an intentional starting point and waiting to see what of it wants your attention

    Taking the time you need to feel it in your body (getting the direct bodily experience of your process/product…This place may be much richer than the words you can give to the experience, this is ‘the implicit’, the thing we do before we can only begin to add interpretations)
    OR sensing the lack of clarity or the lack of language to describe this moment, giving this bodily experience time and space to emerge

    Now beginning to settle down with this particular bodily experience
    OR sensing how it feels from this point of view
    OR letting it know I hear it

    Taking time to sense any changes
    OR thanking my body for revealing all of it
    OR sensing if there is something that wants to be known

    OR a creative response…
    The artist should choose an area of their process they are interested in knowing more about and shows that moment to the witness who creates a response in practice (dance, movement, sound, etc).

    Structure of the process…
    Work in a dyad/pair but you can also work in three’s with two people watching if agreed. Feedback from the process is taken to the whole group for further debate and discussion.

    When in the whole group everyone should attempt to work with focusing. We will ask the artist what they would like to speak about and in what area they would like feedback.

    A suggested approach to group feedback…

    The artist drives the questions and focus of the discussion not the group. Key to this is ‘what are we wanting to know here?’ This way we are sure to focus on what is of concern to the artist rather than foreground our own interest, judgments, opinions (these should be kept at bay).

    Questions and responses from the group should be framed as positive and open-ended.

    After this process we might move into subject matter and opinion if the artist would like to – here we reveal our own agenda before speaking (I have an opinion about…would you like to hear it; this piece made me think about the architectural folds in the space and the fleshy folds of the body, is that something you are interested in?)

    Artist may choose not to respond at any time and to stop at any time.

    Everyone should try and acknowledge that the responses come from a bodily felt experience of the work and the experience of listening to a discussion about the work. The job is to tease out, or at least acknowledge, the relationship between our own judgments and value-systems and those of the artist.

    The final stage is to state some of the mis-givings, misconnections, etc between the artist’s intention and the audience perception of the work (for example, we have talked about the use of blurred images in the video but not about how this work fits into the larger genre of video dance). These should be offered in as positive way as possible and not explored but stated for later development.

    If we can articulate these ‘misfits’ then we might begin to find a way to move into an interactive process that incorporates both sides rather than just the intention of the artist. When we can do this it might be possible to move to a position, collectively, where we can evaluate, critique or review the work.

    Bibliography
    Bacon, Jane (2005) ‘Psyche Moving: Focusing and Active Imagination in movement based performance making and psychotherapy’ in Body, Movement and Dance in Psychotherapy, London: Palgrave
    Hincks, Josiah (2003) ‘5 Facets Model of Creative Process, a model’, unpublished article available through the author via www.focusing.org

    Worth, Libby and Helen Poyner (2005) Anna Halprin, London: Routledge


    And I just wanted to say I really loved it. I really loved it.

    September 11th, 2006

    A tightness across the chest, a heaviness.
    A reminder of knowledge……………….of this process, of this work.
    Seeing more - children, small steps, open spces, 3 screens, colour and an immense sadness in ME.
    A woman dragging herself across the floor.
    Why do I want to make sense?
    A separation of eyes and body. Are they separated?
    ————-
    A shower of colours, of green and white.
    My body chased by nostalgia.
    I think I resisted that, my body resisted it, my head and my throat.
    I wanted to feel and I loathed to feel.
    ————
    Lots to see.
    Meanings in images and associations to images.
    Nowhere near an image. I didn’t see, the first sensation was in my ears.
    A child’s cry and the manipulation of the child’s cry. Nostalgia cut by the manipulation of the sounds. The strings being cut.

    Harmony and dis-harmony.
    Together and apart.
    Fuzziness around the screen.
    Familiarity with the triptych, trying not to remember.

    Images in the middle. The studio work. Felt different. I noticed the difference and it feels significant.
    Evocative image of the older woman on the beach.
    Stillness unwatched but remembered,
    Looking at right (hand side image) but noticing that the left is there more. The song at the end completes that meaning.
    Watching and seeing difference.
    Looking and not looking.
    I’m noticing rather than watching.
    ————–
    (An acknowledgement first) an anxiety about getting this process right.
    An annoyance with having to watch within this framework.
    This colours my experience of watching it, for fear of getting it wrong.

    The enjoyment of watching the images, the cut.
    How do I watch this?
    The connection between the three images. Easy to watch and not easy to watch.
    Annoyed by music and (not) hearing it.
    It never felt easy to listen and watch.
    Closing eyes to hear the words.

    Surprised by being delighted by the simplicity of the four flowers in the frame.
    The colour and simplicity.
    My eyes held by an image outside of the body……………….and tinsel.
    Silver tinsel dust thrown up into the air.
    Being held. By a lightness.
    Curious as to whether it is enough to be intrigued by nothingness.
    I liked the feet in the water. But feet are always interesting to look at.
    Is it enough that I like it?

    Studio sections - is it important that I have seen this show before? (Or that I haven’t?)
    Human beings doing things that are set.
    A really different quality and relative to other images. Not set.
    ————
    Hazy baby gaze.
    White feet. white sheet.
    Eyelashes, eyes up close and fluttering.
    Cold and cool. Feet to head. Faceless womans head. Stroking and comforting.
    First steps. Last steps. Lulling and plodding.
    The sweet sound of babyhood.
    ————
    I loved that.
    The arm across the face.
    And so did you.
    The way the arm fell across the face.
    ————
    Floating boat people.
    Studio stuff on nocturnal sand.
    ————
    A pressing in the chest and a twang in the shoulder blades.
    Empathy and discomfort.
    The pleasure of life on-going.
    Empathy, longing, flow.
    Chest pressing (low diaphragm).
    A warm sensation, mothering, life processes.
    Beginnings and endings - hard.
    A discomfort with the work.
    Twanging, sting.
    The tension between the live work and video. The aesthetic of the studio and filmic images. An unease.
    If I have not seen the live work, then how is it?
    Liking the recontextualisation of the live work.
    And wanting to stay wallowing.
    ————
    A tightness in my neck.
    A real discomfort.
    Silence.
    An inordinately long wait.
    The relief as someone speaks.
    (Thankyou).
    I receive, gratefully and feel amazed by the generosity.
    The generosity in dwelling within oneself and the work, the difficulty in doing that.
    Taking time, taking time up.
    The struggle to be within.
    Close up and alongside.

    Strangely, like me and like the work.
    To take time to form the images and the sounds.
    (For us) the fascination in pre, literally before, language and how an image comes into and out of focus.
    The clarity from the blur………………someone said fuzziness.
    Seeing and not seeing.
    Listening and not hearing.
    Coming to a point of articulation.
    Had anyone seen the (repeated) images of the annunciation?
    (Fra Angelico).
    (Mary and Gabriel).
    No-one said so.
    I could have asked.
    I didn’t.
    Maybe it doesn’t matter?

    How does this work, the thing itself, this little bit of a dance, of sounds, words and images so full of emotions for me,
    absoloutely steeped in them…………
    so very present and yet a real, all too real absence…………..of a dearly loved one…….
    collide, collude and confuse how we respond from our felt sensations?
    What is the difference (in) between nostalgia and sentimentality?

    Thankyou for all of this (in alphabetical order only) to Donald, Guy, Jane, Kerryn, Rob, Simon, Vida.

    And I just wanted to say I also so wanted to hear.
    (although I hadn’t realised how much until I did)!
    I loved it, I just really loved it.
    And it moved me.
    I was moved.
    Thankyou for that too.
    ————

    For Jo.


    Thoughts on focusing process

    September 9th, 2006

    Unedited audio of critical responses to the Focusing Process.


    Who By Fire (triptych) - focusing discussion

    September 9th, 2006

    Following is an unedited version of series of responses (using focusing/felt sense) to viewing of video/film by Sara Giddens.


    post focusing thoughts. Sunday morning.

    September 9th, 2006

    Had a ‘focusing’ session yesterday afternoon, observing Sara’s “Who By Fire” (triptych) - a 12-15 minute split screen film/video. The following are not so much thoughts on that work (which are detailed in the audio), but responses to our ‘critique’ of the process. Questions/thoughts that emerged as I listened to others speaking about (or responding to) the materials.

    I wondered about the nature of ‘cognitive’ responses … as if they are in some way apart from corporeal (’felt’) sensitivities. Where in our bodies do we think? I seem to recall some information in Capra’s ‘Hidden Connections’ about this - but need to go and find it.

    Guy discussed his concern for how “watching it to feedback … should feel different”. I wonder is it simply the nautre of watching an art work with an eye to feeding back, or is it something about the internality of (ie that is specific to) the focusing process that affords this feeling?

    I wondered also about this idea of ‘feeling different’ in relation to the focusing ‘requirement’ to “clear a space”. How my current mind/body infects/impacts on the soon to be felt/experience body/mind. Yes I felt OK, but I felt OK before then (before space was cleared). How does my current OK-ness infect/impact on my soon to be felt OK-ness. What am I bringing to the watching/experiencing? It is the foregrounding of the personal sensations that perhaps leaves me feeling like ‘focusing’ is more for the viewer than the maker (which is not to say the maker does not get ‘value’ out of the process).

    More wondering: watching what is THERE. Not what I want, expect, imagine, have seen before, know about the work in other contexts … just to see/feel what is presented. Can this quieten my mind/body as I am observing?

    Can drifting away be part of the work, the seeing, the experiencing? Surely it is not ‘bad’ to allow the mind to wander — as if a ‘good’ responder is one who is able to concentrate, or as if the experience of viewing needs to be “full”.

    Is artistic the same as aesthetic? These terms are not synonymous.

    Donald: “up close and fluttering”.

    When does the experience become mine? At what point do I take responsibility for my entire experience and not what I think I have been given? Or what I want? Or what he/she wants?

    Vida: “process of talking starts to conceal”
    And also reveal, and to add, degrade … so the work becomes something other? Something better? Something worse? Something more enjoyable? Less enjoyable? Something more evocative? Less?

    I noticed the “owning of judgements” (as in “I own this judgement but …”) which reminded me of … “some of my best friends are black but …” But what of judging the ownership?

    I struggle with ‘focusing’. It feels so much like ‘therapy’, and my distrust (dislike) of self-help procedures. And yet in the struggle to talk to the felt, and embodied, it feels like other possibilities are acquired, other languages, articulations.


    article about making dance based performances using psychological tools by Jane Bacon

    July 21st, 2006

    ‘Myths and Stories by Her’:
    ‘Active Imagination’ and ‘Focusing’ in movement based performance making
    By
    Dr. Jane Bacon

    ‘Myths and Stories by Her’ is a solo, interdisciplinary performance which draws on my training as a release-based contemporary choreographer and the tools of creation which sit outside the field of dance. These tools are more commonly experienced and understood within the field of analytical psychology. The approaches described in this paper are inherently creative and, I would suggest, can be used both for aesthetic and psychological development. Like the infamous Carl Gustav Jung who developed the field of analytical psychology, I am attempting to work with palpable experience as both method and outcome by which I discover performance work that needs to be made. This method is related to Jung’s ‘active imagination’. This was developed by Jung throughout his career but first discovered in the period 1913-1916 (Chodorow, 1997, p.1) but first named as ‘active imagination’ in 1935 (Chodorow, 1997, p.3). Joan Chodorow, a dance therapist and Jungian analyst, suggests that active imagination is a process which “involves turning attention and curiosity toward the inner world of the imagination and expressing it symbolically, all the while seeking a self-reflective, psychological point of view” (2006, p.215).

    My performance work is not directly autobiographical although audiences often notice an autobiographical feel. I use a methodology developed over a number of years which draws upon the self-reflexive ethnographer but this paper is not an explication of the origins and influences of ‘self-ethnography’ (see Pocock,1994; Keallinohomoku, 1989) rather it is an analysis of the creative process and product of ‘Myths’. Most particularly, I will discuss these aspects of the work as they relate (for me) to Jung’s use of the imaginal in ‘active imagination’ (1935) and Eugene Gendlin’s application of ‘felt sense’ in his method of ‘Focusing’ (1978, 2003). These two methods are located within very different psychotherapeutic traditions. Gendlin was a philosopher who then worked with Carl Rogers, Jung was trained as a psychiatrist and worked closely with Freud before breaking to develop his own psychological theories and practices. However, there are similarities in the methods they suggest. It is these similarities which form the basis of this paper and the way in which I allow these processes to intersect, blur, overlap, merge when I am in the studio.

    Perhaps, most importantly, in order to establish the relationship between Jung and Gendlin we need to establish that “Jung recognised that the word ‘image’ is not limited to visual impressions” (2006, p.218). Throughout his career he returned to the idea that active imagination as a personal process might operate differently according to the type of person. He said that there may be visual images for one type of person or voices for another and that “[a]nyone with a motor imagination could make a very beautiful dance out of that motif” (Chodorow, 2006,p.218; Jung 1928-30,p.474, seminar on dream interpretation). So this is not necessarily, although implicitly speaks to, the relationship between the imaginal and the sensate or the image and the movement. It is about how one individual navigates a dialectical relationship between conscious and unconscious that Chodorow suggests (in her reading of Jung) is essential in creativity and active imagination.

    Gendlin’s ‘Focusing’ (1978,2003) is an approach to working with psychic material in what Damasio would call the ‘mind/body environment’ (1994). It is a simple process that operates on the premise that we experience our lives through and with our bodies therefore individuals have the potential for change and transformation through a psychological process that operates through and with the body. Unlike Jung, who did not lay out his method of active imagination in such terms, Gendlin offers a six step process to finding and working with the ‘felt sense’. 1) clearing a space – here we are invited to let go of daily stresses or anxieties, busy-ness and the rest, in a process that is very similar to many forms of meditation; 2)felt sense – we drop down into the body and wait to see what arises; 3)finding a handle- when something in the body stirs or draws our attention we begin to search for a label or an explication of this something (for example, we might say, there is a sort of stickyness, a blackness); 4)resonating – when we have found the right handle, which might be a word, a movement, a brushstroke on the page, etc. we begin to check back and forth between the felt sense (the something we have discovered in our bodies) and the handle we have ascribed to that something to check that it is precisely the right explication; 5)asking- this is the stage when we are trying to discover what this something wants or needs; 6) receiving – it is always important to thank what we have discovered in our focusing session, to accept whatever arises and to acknowledge that whatever we have discovered can be returned to for further personal work and development (Gendlin, 1978, p. 64).

    The link between active imagination and focusing are indicated by Gendlin when he says that the felt sense is similar to Jung’s idea of the transcendent function. I would add that the felt sense locates us in the territory between conscious and unconscious and it does this psycho-physically in time and space. The felt-sense is both like and not like Jung’s four functions – feeling, sensation, intuition and thought – in that there are similarities and or characteristics of all four functions in the felt-sense and yet it is none of them. For example, we experience the felt-sense bodily like sensation; it can manifest in a similar way to our experience of feelings; sometimes it can have an evaluative tenor; it can appear like intuition giving us with information we did not previously have access to and, finally, it usually contains something like cognition (Gendlin, 1996,p. 66). Therefore, Gendlin suggests that Jung’s notion of the transcendent function as the fifth function corresponds to his own definition of the felt sense (Gendlin, 1996, p.66).

    For example, I see someone I think I have met before but cannot place her. There is a body sense of this as well as a rational part asking ‘who is this and how do I know her’? When we remember this information we often feel a bodily shift, an ‘aha’ moment that we experience in our bodies, something more than the visual recollection of the meeting with this woman, something more than a rational thought about this woman. All these aspects come together in the felt sense of the moment.

    Making performance work using psychological tools such as focusing and active imagination allows me to operate in a Deleuzian ‘both/and’ state where I am more than a dancer with a heightened motor imagination and more than a director with a heightened visual imagination. In the creative process I am immersed in all kinds of imaginal territories and in a space where the non-visual of the imaginal is experienced bodily. To those who have done any Authentic Movement, you may recognise this process as part of that process. Chodorow states that Authentic Movement is active imagination in movement and that it “tends to develop a relationship to both sensory and imaginal realms” (Chodorow, 1997, p.260).

    ‘Myths and Stories’ was created and performed in 2004 with the support of Arts Council of England and The University of Northampton’s Choreographic Lab. It shifts from ‘Deep South’ to ‘Middle England’ and back again weaving together fragments of a personal history with fragmented and dream-like images of a solo woman performer. My intention, in the performance and it’s re-staging as a DVD, is to present the viewer with multiple and fragmented images that would create an elusive atmosphere. There is a sense of narrative but it is not singular, does not complete, takes no prisoners. As the piece opens a light appears and disappears on 25 hanging wedding dresses. A woman slowly emerges from the shadows, moving in, through and amongst the dresses. She approaches a microphone and begins a fragmented and unforgiving narrative of one woman’s ‘Once Upon a Time’. This is a fairy tale for the 21st Century woman. Here the woman screams in pain, decries the advice that smiling nicely will make it all alright and yearns for both relationship and enlightenment.

    Now a little about the practicalities of making of the piece. It contains
    ß one solo performer
    ß 25 wedding dresses hung to fill a stage space and act as a video projection screen. This is an attempt to upset the primacy of the projected image when working live with video technology as well as an attempt to provide a sense of multiple selves.
    ß 16ml home movies of my family between 1962 and 1968 projected onto the wedding dresses
    ß personal stories about ‘becoming a woman’ that are fragmented, without context and usually incomplete
    ß songs performed live and then fragmented in a pre-recorded sound track.
    ß Vocal improvisation based on the ‘felt experience’ of singing and the memory of the song performed live and also recorded and fragmented and manipulated into a sound score.
    ß Movement improvisations, both live and pre-recorded, based on the ‘felt experience’ and ‘imaginal’ of dreams and personal memory.
    ß Video material created throughout the process using a feedback loop of projecting previous work whilst moving and re-filming. This creates a layering and multiplying of images.

    It is important to understand that I do not make work for audience entertainment or for financial success. I make work to explore an issue or to deepen my understanding of something and to help facilitate issues or concepts that often seem to me to be difficult to articulate. The making of this piece came out of a frustration with ethnographic tools at my disposal. I wanted something that would allow me to focus on the psycho-physical in my ethnographic research on dance and identity in contemporary culture (Bacon, 2003, 2006a, 2006b). Many dancers had spoken about what I would call ‘numinous’ images or experiences that guided their dancing but these were not visible to the ethnographic eye. So I began exploring new tools (such as focusing) ethnographically. Latterly, I began to turn this process in on myself and to blend it with my own psychological development (Bacon, 2005). I began to draw on dreams and memories. Lingering in dream places and body states as well as working with this personal history, I began to discover a new and emerging methodology for my performance making as well as a shift in psychological development.

    When Jung said that active imagination can create “a movement out of the suspension between two opposites, a living birth that leads to a new level of being, a new situation” (Jung, 1916/58, par.189) he also said it was something that existed in all of us, the ‘transcendent function’, that part of us that works to put pieces of the jigsaw of our lives together to make meaning at particular points in our lives. I take this to relate to the multiplicity of the parts within us as well as the intersubjective nature of our existence in the collective.

    Working with dream imagery

    Dancing – I think I must dream of this a lot, not surprising as it has dominated my adult life – but they are such short sequences of movement, nothing touches the floor, not feet on the floor, no rolling or other floor sequences that I would do in real life. The sequences are incomplete, impossible and exist somehow in mid-air. More than this they are always unsatisfactory – not sure for whom – they never seem to be completable, never seem good enough, never very ‘danceable’.
    This dancing is somehow trapped, encapsulated in some sort of bubble. When I look at it, it is shining and beautiful with fragments of light shining through a sort of translucent embryonic membrane.
    (personal dream)

    My first impression of this dream was of something difficult and painful, an example of ‘something’ that I could not achieve or was unattainable. But, as I began to work with my analyst on this dream, I wondered for whom is this dancing unsatisfactory. Perhaps the ego is hard at work, maintaining it’s claim to this particular territory.

    The analyst’s account: “this was an example of the beginnings of a Self-Ego axis, or if you prefer, of dialogue between conscious/unconscious. It was an example of a dream that initiated that ongoing process and therefore had a profound effect. The analysand gave a fuller account of the dream during our work together in which she suggested that the dream ego seemed to be in a very dark place like a prison with a high up window. The thing about it which seemed numinous was the translucent dancing light”.

    As I realized this ‘dancing light’ was as much a part of me as the part that wanted to see the dancing as unsatisfactory, I began to shift from a hyper-critical performance maker into one who could spend time in the dark places, in small places, in unknown territory without knowing how that would emerge in the work or in my personal life. I began to develop a relationship to this translucent, embryonic bubble.

    The dream acted as a starting point for a series of improvisations based on active imagination and focusing. I imagined both the part of me that wanted to see the dancing as unsatisfactory and the part that was dancing in a high up place were going to try to work together but in this focusing process there seemed to be no way that they could co-exist without immense blackness descending. I began to visualise some sort of tunnel that would allow me to travel back and forth.

    Later, when I began to reflect on the exercise, I realised that the images were all suspended together in my visualization. The next step was to try and create a physical space that contained this image. I needed something that would contain multiple images of dancing on multiple levels and a space that would contain the part of me that thought the dancing light was somehow unsatisfactory. I am unsure about the next step in the creative process but the result was that I hung 25 used wedding dresses in the theatre. They filled the space like a two dimensional video projection screen but also operated like a three dimensional sculpture. This was the beginning of my new performance piece in this fragmented space.

    The next step was to find ways to inhabit the space. On reflection, I could now say that I was looking to deepen the experience of the ego-self axis dream, to deepen the relationship between the conscious and unconscious. The space became full of wedding dresses because they were cheap and white – that was the rational explanation during the process. I tried not to concern myself with the symbolic representation of a wedding dress. Believing all would come clear in the fullness of time. And so it did. As I improvised I began to inhabit this world of the feminine and stories emerged from my youth. Again, not clear what or how this was to be incorporated but knowing I was interested in ‘having it out’ with my past and reconstructing something for the future, I projected old home movies from 1961-64 onto the wedding dresses. In this process I am mindful of Jung’s comment that “as soon as one tries to abstract the ‘real essence’ of the picture, the whole thing becomes cloudy and indistinct” (p.156, 1949, 1985). Of course, he was referring to the problems of explaining an archetype and issuing a warning not to look at these symbols or figures out of their habitual context. I wanted to know if it was possible for me to create virtual images of my self and confront these symbols in much the way I might with dream imagery.

    Why Myths?
    ‘Myths and Stories by Her’ is one attempt to work creatively with symbolic imagery. The intention is to let the images and sensations in dreams and remembered histories float to the surface of consciousness. I am not interested in working with predetermined symbols or archetypes. I tend to generate the material, work with ideas from depth and analytical psychology and, after the making, look back at what material is working symbolically and that might be read archetypically.

    What I saw were fleeting images of me, my brothers, my mother, her mother. I began to immerse myself in this world, a world that soon became one of the ‘feminine’, of becoming a woman. More latterly I have found that this piece is one of a number of works I have created that, to paraphrase von Franz, might help women to define their identity (von Franz, 1972,1993, p.1). Looking back I can see that this was the confrontation with my personal mythology. Myths are not only, as Barthes (Mythologies 1973, 1989) would have it, falsehoods created externally to the individual. They are models human beings use to code and organise their feelings, thought and actions in the world. Sometimes these models are pre-existing and, in contemporary urban societies, people are capable of constructing distinctively individual personal myths. Myths serve to inspire, generate conviction, galvanise action, and unify an individual or group by creating passionate participation on the level of the individual or collective myth (Feinstein and Krippner, 1989, p.4). An individual myth or mythology informs and governs, quite often unconsciously, an individual’s expectations and aspirations.

    In keeping with Lévi-Strauss’s notion that it is impossible to separate history from myth, the Jungian analyst, Wickes says, “modern man is unaware of the myth that lives itself within him, of the image, often invisible, that dynamically impels him toward choice” (Wickes,1963, p. ix). Individuals use this personal mythology to construct their understanding of themselves and their place in the world. These “expectations are typically an amalgam of images and stereotypes derived from the mass media, one’s friends and acquaintances, in some cases popular books read on the subject plus, on occasion, distinct fantasy projections and wish-fulfilments” (Rees, 1999, p.18).

    In addition to projecting the home movies, I also projected movement, text and song previously filmed. These provided the potential for interacting with the figures as if they were archetypal and therefore part of a personal myth structure. To better understand the relationship between these so called archetypal or virtual images and what was to become live performance and experiences of dancing, I wanted to find a frame of understanding that did not operate within a monotheism but, to use Hillman’s phrase, worked ‘in tandem’(Hillman, James, 1983, p. 166) or within an understanding of the archetype of the oppositional. According to Hillman, myths “take place in a polycentric field of persons” (Hillman, James, 1983, p.175) by which I understand him to mean that we cannot understand the mythical figure, icon or archetype in isolation but must begin to analyse the figure within the psychological relations or plot as it becomes meaningful for an individual. Hillman says “Not that structure is prior to figure, prior to content…(r)ather, figure and structure are coterminous” (Hillman, James, 1983, p.175). So I wanted to have the stage space (a metaphorical structure of my life) contain the figure or figures. Jung said “every mother contains her daughter in herself and every daughter her mother, and that every woman extends backwards into her mother and forwards into her daughter. This participation and intermingling give rise that that peculiar uncertainty as regards time” (Jung, p.162, 1949,1985). I want the audience to look between, to hold the tension. I want an atmosphere that resists completion, full accounts, story endings, whole dances, whole songs. What seemed to emerge was a space where one performer, one individual becomes mother, daughter, cultural stereotype and archetype.

    A post-Jungian, post-feminist analysis
    Rowland says postmodernism has generated a shift from the feminist trajectory of allying difference rather than “a single body designed to represent one category of ‘women’” to a recognition of differences in “class, sexuality, race and ethnicity” and “the impact of poststructualism, deconstruction and psycholanalytic feminisms after Lacan” have had a profound effect on feminist thinkers (Rowland, 2002, p. 127). Feminist practice proposes, according to feminist and cultural theorist Coppock, “women should enjoy creating their own images and gain pleasure from experimenting with their appearance. This does not mean ‘selling out’ but can contribute to the reclamation of the positive aspects of adornment” (Coppock, 1995, p.29). But how does a media constructed image of ‘woman’ butt up against a women’s individual circumstance and how and where does the mythology of the collective and individual collide and collude. If the myth of ‘woman’ is largely a media invention (Rapping, 1994) where reclaiming one’s body and sexuality through adornment and other practices are current themes in the ‘post-feminist’ then this work is an attempt to provide an instance social and cultural significance for one woman. Perhaps Rowland is right when she says that when there is “no one set of rules, art and aesthetics take on a new significance” (Rowland, 2002, 128). In this post-modern, post-Jungian, post-feminist space where ‘woman’ can be re-imaged, re-written, re-made, then words and images of the feminine can take on potential, as I have attempted to do here, rather than assume a descriptive whole. The feminine, such as the archetypal images of woman and the fleshy dancing bodies created on these pages, become markers, floating symbols (not signifiers) without a secure or complete definition. In this way it is up to the culture, here the women who embrace the image and those who see and interpret that image, to create new meanings for the feminine.
    What I hope is that I have allowed a space or a shift to a localised knowledge where the ‘master narratives’ are made more malleable in the hands and bodies of a real woman dancing and this provides the audience an opportunity to understand these images symbolically and relationally.

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    Tuesday 20th December 2005

    December 20th, 2005

    FOCUSING

    Jane ran a focussing session. Details of the structure for how to focus were given to us in hard copy. I worked with Vida. We developed the apparently normal focusing procedure by taking it into sound and movement rather than words. One person focuses the other listens and “reflects back”.

    My questions were:

    First exercise: “The World?’” I giggled at this because its such an enormous question, why wouldn’t one have a problem with it. Also it is typical of me to choose such an enormous subject.

    Second exercise, where the question had to be more related to an issue within the lab: “Why do I want to set my work?”

    My experience: I felt a Xmas tree on the front of my body - its star just at the apex of the v at the bottom of my sternum. I laughed since it so close to Xmas how corny to have a Xmas tree. The star at the top of the tree was cover over by something brown. Words I used were BROWN COLOUR; SHIT, COW PAT, BROOWN DIRT…. Then I realised it was really the colour and texture of brown paint powder like we used to us in school. This was the most fitting image – a small mound of brown paint powder. I lifted my fist and brought it down on the mound to disperse it as I discovered. Then I rubbed it over my body until I was covered in brown paint powder. I was brown. Then I wondered “what does it need”……WATER…its too dry….paint powder needs to be mixed with water. So I stood under a shower…which although it solved the dry powder issue, meant that the powder just washed down the plughole. But it meant I was CLEAN, I was CLEAR. There was cleanness, there was clarity.

    ISADORA

    In the afternoon Kerryn and Barret showed us what Isadora was which was very interesting. I thought I would only be interested in the masking aspect of it but looking at it again perhaps there are other functions of it need to explore…. e.g.

    - Running various voice-movement scores/people alongside one another.
    - Creating a chorus


    May 3rd, 2005